The Ego Chronicles

What I do and why I do it.

Redirect: on Reservations

To The Slow Painful Death of Secularism, mostly because I’ve left a pretty huge comment there, in response to another even larger comment. The post isn’t actually as dramatic as the title sounds, just the prestidigitator expressing his surprise and dismay in a few short paragraphs over the new reservations policy, and the remarks of a priest at a televised debate over the NRP. It’s mildly interesting. Far more serious to me, of course, is the utterly dimwitted plan to put reservations for FACULTY at the IITs, IIMs, and IISc s, something that i sincerely hope will only be phased in after I graduate. Here’s a link to the story. Here’s a link to a petition to revoke the above idiotic proposal, although I doubt it will do any good. On the other hand, taking the 1 minute to express your sanity might make you feel a little better.

Just in case the idea does NOT strike you as ridiculous, recall that faculty reservations will have a much more severely degrading influence on the academic quality of the institute, with a substantially reduced possible benefit (being restricted to the few additional, unqualified new lecturers), as compared to student reservations. Which is something else I don’t like, but more because they’re unfair than because they are clearly ridiculous. But I digress. Even if one is willing to accept that students who score far lower than their peers on the selection test will do as well given proper training, it is easy enough to see that both groups of students will suffer immensely without it. And the chances are far higher that a lecturer selected on the basis of caste will do a much worse job than one selected on the basis of merit. I’m not saying it’s impossible for someone selected on the basis of caste to do the job as well as existing faculty, simply that its less likely. And given that this decision will help only a few backward caste academics, probably at the expense of the far greater number of students in all the premier institutes, the (damn it, I AM going to say it!!!) brightest minds of the country, wouldn’t it make sense to be a little less haphazard?

Another important factor is that most IT faculty (at least, the ones I know) have taken significant pay cuts to work in what they consider an institute of academic excellence, in the company of the BMotC. They work  because of their belief that they are doing something for the country, for the students, and for science and learning in general. Take away that belief, and then we’ll REALLY be f*cked.

Just my two cents. I expect a quick search will deliver far more detailed criticisms( my own quick search didn’t find many endorsements, but I’m sure they are out there as well). Am home, so posting frequency will be reduced.

July 16, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | government, links, policy, ranting | , , | No Comments

Cectic on ID

Mathew puts me onto another webcomic:

at Cectic . Also, check out his new blog on the blogroll: Quantum Spectacles.

July 12, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | comics | , , | No Comments

Choices, by Randall Munroe

I could just link, but I’ll save you the trouble of going to all 5 pages. Also, here is the audio drama based on the series by Broken Sea Audio Productions. I really recommend listening to it, it’s not very long and its quite nice. Listen and read at the same time, if you can.

choices

First time I’m linking directly to an audio file, don’t know if some built-in player will appear, just download it if it doesn’t.

choices part 1

choices part 2

choices part 3

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5

July 6, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | links, whimsical | , , , | No Comments

FSM, Neo and Morpheus: the webcomic!

FSM Neo and Morpheus
Tried out with more of fd’s flickr toys, the captioner, and it struck me that this would be a very quick way to make a webcomic. Not that I have any intention of starting one seriously, but I made an attempt to see how easy it is. And the results: technically, very easy, but getting the idea is a lot harder than it seems. As attested by the admittedly lame image you now see.

July 4, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | Uncategorized | | No Comments

Flickr Mosaic

Self-tagged, from Travel and Other Obsessions. Takes a little work, but it seems quite interesting, mostly because it lets you pick out what picture you want.

a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.

1. What is your first name? Nikhil
2. What is your favorite food? Pizza
3. What high school did you go to? Corpus Christi (Pallikoodam now, but I prefer this)
4. What is your favorite color? Blue
5. Who is your celebrity crush? Olivia Wilde
6. Favorite drink? Whisky
7. Dream vacation? tropical island (necessarily involves hot girlfriend, though)
8. Favorite dessert? cheesecake
9. What you want to be when you grow up? rich (only definite answer!)
10. What do you love most in life? love (or, the feeling of being in)
11. One Word to describe you.                        arrogant (sad, but I can’t think of anything else)
12. Your flickr name. nikhil (actually its tdi13in, but no pics with that, ergo)
And this is the image:

Portrait Mosaic

They’re in (if I remember right) row-major form; top-middle is 2, top-right is 3, second-left is 4 etc.

Image Credits:

1. What Nikhil made, 2. “What? Oh, not much, hanging out, eating some pizza…”, 3. Corpus Christi Sunrise, 4. wham:a different corner, 5. Olivia Wilde photo by Tao Ruspoli, 6. 45/365 Breakfast of Champions!, 7. Laguna, 8. mango cheesecake, 9. Back from my Méditerranée villa, 10. Step by step… steadily ♫♫, 11. The Song of the Serial Killer, 12. Thirsty Silhouette

This isn’t really a tag, its just a meme, but I feel like tagging someone. Actually, I don’t, but I want to see somebody else’s mosaics, particularly someone I know. Any volunteers?

July 4, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | whimsical | , , | 5 Comments

MAMAs!!!

The list is quite funny all by itself, but check out the last line for that little nudge to make you burst out with laughter. Then think of a lumbering tam guy in a lungi.

Most Awesomely Bad Military Acronyms | Danger Room from Wired.com

* PAST-A!: Pedagogically Adaptive Scenarios for Training — Automated!

* CAN-DO: Cognitive Airborne Networks for Defense Operations

* IBOM (”I bomb”): Ionizing Brownout Mitigation System

* TEMATA (”T’mata”): Total Envelope Modeling Application for Transport Aircraft

* BNONA (”B’nana”): Broadband Non-Planar Octave Nested Array

* STURDI: Strain Gage Calibration Using Response to Dynamic Input

* FEAST: Framework for Enabling Adaptive Scenario Generation for Training

But this list — compiled by ace intern Zelda Roland — only begins to scratch the surface of the Most Awesomely Bad Military Acronyms (”MAMAs,” for short).

July 4, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | government, links, whimsical | | No Comments

Busted!

Ok, it was a fine for not buying a ticket on the MRTS (in Chennai), but it was my first real all-by-myself run-in with the law(except for a an almost case of the exact same thing earlier) so I’m allowed to feel both freaked out and excited. Although at this point it’s more “crap, 250 bucks!!!!”.

In my defense, I was hungry and I didn’t think anyone would be checking for tickets at 6 in the morning and there was a line even at that time and the train came JUST when I entered the station and i didn’t know when the next one might be because I knew they’re not very frequent at that hour and I was hungry.

In other news, went to see The Incredible Hulk and stayed over at friend’s place, which is how I came to be on a train at 6 in the morning in the first place. Despite being a big fan of Edward Norton, I have to say I preferred the first movie. Perhaps this is just disappointment over the fact that we were denied the cameo by Robert Downey Jr as Ironman that we were eagerly awaiting since the start of the movie, but the overall storyline seemed less…substantial. I mean, nothing had really changed between the start and the end of the movie, and as my friend said, we’d already seen all the monster sized fun on the trailer. I guess it would have been different if they’d shown a hint of the formation of the Avengers: a new beginning, and all that. But they didn’t, and I’m not writing about it. So there.

PS: And thirsty.

July 1, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | Uncategorized | | 2 Comments

Movie Update

Ghost Rider is the crappiest movie adaptation of a comic book ever made. I had a tiny inkling of that before watching it, but it far surpassed anything I could have imagined. Even Eva Mendez doesn’t help. Not that I’m a big fan of hers anyway, but babes are usually a quick fix for getting bad movies from “unwatchable” to “if you have a thing for crap”, and they couldn’t even pull that off here. I’m not linking to the movie because I don’t think anybody should have to go through the trauma of reading the plot, even accidentally.

On the other hand, I really liked 21 and “Across the Universe“, both starring the young British star Jim Sturgess, who is officially my new favourite actor. 21 is the story of 6 students in MIT who go to Vegas and make big bucks counting cards at the Blackjack tables. Well, almost. I’d say more, but you may as well see the movie, it had a blockbuster release and I believe it’s still in theatres.

Across the Universe was far less widely distributed, but in my opinion it is a superior film. It’s one of the very few musicals in which I looked forward to the songs, all of which are originally by the Beatles. The movie is set in the 60s and deals with a young man from Liverpool who crosses the Atlantic to find his father (he’s illegitimate) and ends up in the middle of the most exciting changes of the past half century: the counterculture movement. The movie deals with the anti war protests, hippies, rock and roll, love and loss, and the draft; it even describes historical events like the Columbia University protests and the bombing. Also, Jim’s co-star in Across the Universe is the ethereally beautiful Evan Rachel Wood, who I thought did a much better job than the more famous Kate Bosworth in 21 and who I would have fallen for were my heart not already pledged to the divine Olivia Wilde.

On the plus side, new high: 1541 views, yesterday!!!

On the more significant minus side, I’ve been informed that the project I’m (supposed to be) doing is almost certainly far too complex for me to handle, especially considering that all the stuff I need to learn to do it are what they’re going to teach me NEXT year.  Also, my mother had made me promise to go back home after the 15th (which I want to do, anyway) so I only have till the 11th or so to get anything done.

PS: Yes, far worse than Daredevil. I LIKED Daredevil. And not just because of Jennifer Garner, either.

PPS: Can somebody please,please,please send me any episodes of House after s04e09? I know I’m addicted, but that doesn’t help the fact that I really want my fix. I’ll pay for any expenses incurred. Well, if you email me/comment first and I agree that it’s not unreasonable, atleast.

PPPS: Pretty please?

June 28, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | movie, whimsical | , , , , , | 7 Comments

965 views a day!

I checked my blog stats after a couple of days today, to find that about 2 days back I hit a high of 965 posts. Obviously, this got me curious. So I searched the referrers and found THIS:

FIRST on a Google Image Search for a popular topic! Woohoo!

June 26, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | whimsical | , , | No Comments

Authority, Obedience and Indoctrination

I think I’m coming off as more and more anarchist in these pages, but I thought this made sense. The extract is from a comment, not from the original post, which spoke about how cops would “like” to police, which as far as I was concerned was simply a listing of various types of police brutailty, the only difference being that they did it to the “bad guys”. Vigilantism, in other words. So if you’re interested, read the post, then scroll down for this comment. The commenter refers to “America”, but you can probably use the same language for any organized society. Even more ours than theirs, I think.

How Cops Really Want to Police - Freakonomics - Opinion - New York Times Blog

I don’t think the primary trouble is with the cops. The cops are made possible by a society with an ethos that the good is simply something that you do because you ‘have to’, because you ought, because you owe it to society, and that all human civilisation rests upon authority and obedience. The parents, the churches, the class structure teach everyone that a person who doesn’t obey the tribe and play its game is a threat to everyone else. The tolerance of police thuggery is but a consequence.

The hideous comments David Houser alluded to show that the essential problem is not internal to police culture- people in the larger society think that you have to keep order, no matter what. They treat their wives and children and employees this way- and even if they are the wives and the children and the employees they probably don’t question the basic view of human beings and society which inevitably leads to people being tasered to make them ‘behave’. They just get upset that someone else is on top (and never mind that when you have this atavistic morality, men of prestige and violence will always come out on top.)

This is the reason it has been impossible to rally ineffective opposition to authoritarianism in America- people don’t object to authoritarianism because they share its mind- even most libertarians and progressives. Here, the libertarians merely obsess that the authority is wielded by the state and not civil society and the most of the left is more concerned with the fact that one group is lording it over another than with the ethos of authority shared by all the groups.

Everyone paying attention knows by now that America has a gulag scale prison system where rape and torture are simple part of the social order. And yet it is impossible to get significant numbers of people to care. Yes, this is because the system continually rewards the type of people that don’t care- but the ‘system’ starts in childhood and doesn’t change much across class lines; even if the oligarchy helped create this kind of culture (and it clearly and consciously did in the last generation and a half), today the oligarchy’s values are shared by the public at large. In fact to a large degree I think the authoritarianism of the American public makes an oligarchy inevitable. If the elite and the cops were to disappear tomorrow, the public would rise up a new elite and a new set of cops as bad as the old ones.

The police conduct the worst and most direct physical brutality, yes. They’re bastards- I’ve certainly [got] myself a few stories. But what makes it possible is all the ‘good Germans’… er, ‘good Americans’- all the nice everday people who teach their kids from day zero to conform and obey if they want to get ahead; who prize ‘getting ahead’ (and ‘getting along’) more than integrity or happiness; who believe that we have to stuff our humanity down deep if we’re to be civil to everyone else and hide miserable nastiness under suffocating demands for public neatness and politeness.

The dominant cultures in America take it as common sense that rights are mainly the property of ‘good citizens’, which primarily means those people who are best at showing their compliance to others. American meritocracy has become a system which is ‘individualist’ only in the sense that it expects people to ruthless compete with each other to see who is best at conforming and obeying, and in the sense that the most idiotic forms to personal gratification are available to those who win the bloody game well enough.

People can’t complain about police abuses because they share the premises of the police. When people revere the inner policeman in their hearts (or the big one in the sky) as the most necessary part of their souls, they will never be effective at combating even gross and obvious police brutality because they share the mindset that causes it and only object to the last consequence of visible violence and blood. Patriarchs who believe women should keep in their place can’t stop wife-beating even when they genuinely believe in paternalism without violence. The ‘good patriarchs’ endlessly blame the ‘bad patriarchs’ and never get that the difference between the two is merely one of degree and circumstance. And unfortunately in patriarchy most of the wives feel the same way (they’ve been brought up with the same values, and survive to the degree they adopt them), and their absolutely just complaints about their own oppression too often translate merely into more demands for resources to put down the bad patriarchs without any challenge to the system. American police statism is simply the bad patriarch of a generally authoritarian culture.

The average German in Hitler’s time probably didn’t want to murder Jews, but shared a warped view of society, ethics, and history which caused them to see Jews as a ‘problem’. Similarly, the average American today probably doesn’t believe that gays, social deviants, drug users, poor people, or whatever should be treated in the way they are. But they don’t do anything to stop it because they do basically feel that such people aren’t being good and behaving as they ‘ought to’ (and ‘ought to’ no matter what was done to them or what real chance they have to do anything else). They don’t believe gay men should be bashed but do believe gay men are a threat to others, or at least bad people for being themselves at the ‘expense’ of others’ conventions. They believe that poor people must be bad if they didn’t succeed because they take for granted a respect for the virtues which result in success in a heirarchical society. It’s all just parents beating on children in the sincere (and of course also ideological) belief that they are performing the most necessity of social duties and defending good by beating down the bad.

The good Americans abhor the means but share the ends, and no matter how obvious it becomes that the ends necessitate the means they won’t give up on them because their bedrock sense of morality and personal identity makes these ends the unchallengable basics of civilised life. If you believe that civilisation depends on everyone working hard in order to be rewarded for serving the group you will not be able to prevent thugs from coming to power on the promise that they will make everyone do what they ought to do anyway. It’s not the thugs that did it. It’s the non-thugs who falsely believe that the thug’s virtues are responsible for everything good and true in this world.

Nothing can change the direction of the political system as long as these values pervade a culture. Most attempts to prevent the disaster include in themselves the worldview which causes it, and those that do not simply have no traction and appeal with mainstream society because they implicitly or explicitly contradict its basic understandings. We now have a homo Americanus to match homo Sovieticus- a new competitive, commercial, it’s-all-your-fault, ‘devil-take-the-hindmost’ variety of collectivist soul.

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June 19, 2008 Posted by ramblingperfectionist | discussion, government, injustice, policy | , , , , , | No Comments